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Who am I?

I am an obscure great-great-grandson of Oscar Adolphe Barcelo & Eugenie Beaudry of MontrΓ©al.

And I am an equally obscure great-grandson of George Henry Leandre Barcelo & Sarah Anne Bird of Winnipeg (Manitoba) and Langdon (North Dakota).

Monday, 20 November 2023

πŸ’€☠πŸ’€☠πŸ’€☠ The Loss of Hope

I had my five-mile+ walk as well as a little grocery shopping last evening, and was back home well ahead of my younger brother.

When he showed up, I was all set to put our Android TV Box into action to watch an episode of The Graham Norton Show on T.V. This one was season or series 31's episode five.

I must confess that guest Arnold Schwarzenegger was unexpectedly entertaining and interesting.

We next watched an extra long episode of American Ninja Warrior ─ it was season 15's episode 10 (Semifinals 3 & 4). Alas, Jessie Graff won't be participating any further ─ such a magnificent treat to behold!

After that, we just watched some random SmartTube (YouTube) app videos.

Overall, I added three cans of Cariboo Malt (8% alcohol) to the brimming shot glass of Kraken Black Spiced Rum (47% alcohol) that I had drunk just prior to my walk.

I cannot certainly say when it was that I got to bed, but it may have been before 2 a.m.

Obviously I remained home today, but I will be getting up at 1:30 a.m. to ready for a five-mile+ walk.

Yesterday I forgot to mention that in the afternoon I watched a fairly interesting half hour (28:13) video at Librti.com: Susan Standfield was live November 18, 2023.

Susan Standfield was live November 18, 2023

LONDON CALLING

HOW WE CAN DEPOSE TRUDEAU

GET THIS TO POLIEVRE

LETTER TO THE KING

OATHS REALMS AND SUBJECTS

King Charles is in violation of his Coronation Oath which means abdication is on the cards. Here's why and the new London campaign to dissolve Rishi Sunak wholly unlawful parliament.  As he's Head of State in Canada too, Canadians can also use this tactic to force King Charles to dissolve the Canadian Parliament and DEPOSE TRUDEAU.

also available:

https://www.facebook.com/susan.standfieldspooner/videos/1394049531215033Susan

This morning my brother and I were to watch Odessa Orlewicz's hour-long (57:08) video from yesterday: That Mexico Episode With Nick D'Urso.

This is a niche episode for those thinking of leaving Canada/America. I'm in no way telling anyone they should leave, but I was surprised how many viewers emailed me after I mentioned Mexico, asking me how to contact the freedom communities Norb and I went to see there (in Tulum.) As promised I brought Nick D'Urso on to give everyone the low down on the large awake Canadian and American communities being built there. Thousands of Canadians and Americans are fleeing the incoming communism/ inflation/weird wokeness & housing costs to relocate to Mexico. Nick wrote an amazing book on how to do it, and he helps Canadians to relocate there as he himself lived through doing just that years ago. Grab your margarita and have some fun with us during this episode. This is part 1 of a 2 part episode. Next week I bring Matt on who is building a community (with Eric) in both Tulum and Costa Rica. Norb and I stayed there to check it out for everyone.

Nicks book: https://libertytalkcanada.ca/mexico-ebook and Nicks online course: https://libertytalkcanada.ca/mexico-course

Next I tuned in what proved to be a very interesting 1¼-hour (1:17:25) video added November 16 to Rumble's Children's Health Defense Canada channel: The Big Picture - David Stephan.

David joins me to discuss his family's gripping cautionary tale in a new 6 part docu-series by Todd Michael Harris - BIGPICTUREMOVIE.COM

This is the micro story of David and Collet Stephan who were charged with “Failure to provide the necessaries of life” after their son Ezekiel died mysteriously at Children’s Hospital in Alberta, Canada. While also looking at the macro story of how Globalists are using everything at their disposal, including our health, against us in what seems to be a great poisoning and an attempt to establish a digital system of slavery.

“We the people” are at war against Mr. Global and this film introduces the viewer to some of its biggest resisters. Through interviews with people like RFK Jr., Dr. Robert Malone, and Catherine Austin Fitts we start to uncover the failure and corruption of the W.H.O., the W.E.F., N.I.H., Health Canada and other regulatory bodies whose criminal devotion to a global cabal became so obvious during the “Public Health” reaction to Covid 19.

Todd Michael Harris started working in film in the early 2000s with an immediate focus on Writing, Directing, Cinematography, and Editing. He worked on everything from Episodic television to Music Videos, to Commercials to Feature Films.

In September 2021 he released the feature documentary, “LOVE IN THE TIME OF COVID - PARTS 1 & 2” which immediately garnered a large international fan base.

In July 2022 he released the 2 part feature documentary, “UNINFORMED CONSENT”. It has been translated into 6 languages, including Mandarin, and has been seen by millions of viewers around the planet.

My brother never watched it. He fussed about in the kitchen; and then at 11 a.m. announced that he was going to his bedroom for some bed rest before he left for the day around noon.

I could have gotten in quite an early afternoon nap, but instead I chose debauchery, but I will not elaborate on that. I did try to nap around 2:45 p.m. at latest, but then I checked my cellphone and found a text from my wife.

She actually ventured to me that she was considering a bank line of credit in order to pay off her various loans; but ─ if I was willing ─ I might have to go with her to help facilitate the arrangement.

In other words, co-sign, I expect.

Well, I am not immersing myself into any more of her confounded credit debt schemes ─ I am fed up with having to be making payments on credit cards that she cannot pay off. If she did not party and gamble at casinos so damned much, she would not be in whatever dilemma she is presently in.

I have not responded (the text actually came at 1:42 p.m.), but I will. I intend to of course decline involvement.

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This is a bath day, but first I decided to have some supper and a large stiff shot of Kraken Rum while watching an episode of Castle Rock ─ it was season two's episode four ("Restore Hope" ).

My youngest stepson, who had to work today at 'the office', came home fairly early into the episode. And then about midway through it, my wife phoned. She was doing some painting for someone somewhere in Vancouver, and I could soon recognize that she was using her 'under the influence' voice ─ she was probably drinking some wine or beer.

She asked if I had seen her earlier text, and then she started her big push, justifying how all of her debts could be paid off and she would just have one large payment instead of various smaller ones.

But I know from experience that her gambling will not stop; she will blow far too much money at the casino; and then she will once again be ferreting out new credit sources and the new payments will start accumulating.

However, it is impossible to reason with her when she is drinking, so we agreed to talk on Wednesday. She will be home after working on Tuesday, but she knows that I will have gone to bed early (due to having another early a.m. walk ahead of me).

Her son heard in my voice ─ as I talked on my cellphone to his mother ─ that which he sensed was a sign that something might be amiss concerning his mother, so he asked; but I merely indicated something else of no real consequence. Fortunately, I suppose, his girlfriend was waiting outside for him to bring her into the house so the two could disappear into the boys' den area.

I finished watching the Castle Rock episode, craving the inebriation of some more drink, but I resisted and had my bath instead.

And now it is almost 9 p.m., and I must soon enough ready for bed.

I have suggested to God that maybe it would be best if I somehow was killed tonight. I accept all the guilt of my sins ─ He needn't bother resurrecting me for judgment. Just destroy whatever comprises my essence while I am dead, and we can be totally done with me.

I have failed life. I am a 74-year-old loser with no hope in sight. I know of no other way that I can get free of the misery that is my retirement life.

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