Yesterday my younger brother had come home ─ sober ─ late in the afternoon, so accepting that I would have to spend the evening operating our T9 Android 8.1 TV Box to watch episodes of the T.V. series we follow, I sought a very early-evening nap.
I wasn't in bed much over an hour, so any nap I achieved was scant. And so from 8:00 p.m. onward, I watched T.V. with him.
Then at midnight, he wanted me to tune in a second (and nearly hour-long) episode of one of those series, but I refused ─ I was too damned tired. I told him that I was simply unable to sit up until 1:00 a.m. watching more T.V. It was fine for him ─ he was corked by then and loath to surrender his drinking in order to go to bed.
Then at midnight, he wanted me to tune in a second (and nearly hour-long) episode of one of those series, but I refused ─ I was too damned tired. I told him that I was simply unable to sit up until 1:00 a.m. watching more T.V. It was fine for him ─ he was corked by then and loath to surrender his drinking in order to go to bed.
So I compromised and tuned in a sitcom. And when it was done, he was on his own.
I slept fairly well overnight, and never checked the time until almost 6:00 a.m. At that point I was still considering turning onto my side to seek further sleep, but then I opted instead to rise and get to work on the post that I am developing at one of my six hosted websites.
I returned to bed well before 9:00 a.m., by which time my youngest stepson had risen and gone on his way to work. He seems to have been given use of his older brother's car now that the latter possesses and operates a Harley-Davidson motorcycle.
When next I rose, it wasn't too much after 10:00 a.m., yet my brother was still not up even though my eldest stepson was. However, my brother soon enough rose and had a shower.
He occupied himself with the Saturday morning edition of the Vancouver Sun that I subscribe to; and then he returned to his bedroom to seek further bed rest ere heading off in his van to perform some errands and probably have a park walk somewhere.
I had my day's first meal while he was resting; and then after he left, I sought my own nap.
The day has been a blend of Sun and cloud, the latter predominating. I really should be seeking daytime walks, but I just hate being out in the busy public. It is simply too stressful.
I do not drive, so I cannot betake myself to somewhere in which it would be possible to walk in peaceful reflection.
I do not drive, so I cannot betake myself to somewhere in which it would be possible to walk in peaceful reflection.
I wish I had the financial freedom allowing me to relocate to somewhere in which I could be outside whenever I chose without being constantly in the public eye as is the case around here.
God could change this, I know; but he does not. Debt has me virtually imprisoned within my own home.
My brother was back from his drive by 4:40 p.m., but as yet I don't know if he is here to remain, or if he will be heading out awhile later to bus somewhere to have drinks with one or more of his drinking buddies, or even his girlfriend Bev. It would be nice for me if he headed on over to her home and spent tonight there with her.
Having him home constantly because of the COVID-19 shutdown of the drinking holes he would otherwise be frequenting is a major hindrance for me. I prefer getting to bed early so that I can rise early in the a.m. and get things done ─ maybe even have a walk of a couple or so miles.
But I cannot do that when he is here expecting me to join him to sit up into the midnight hour operating our Android TV Box (he cannot operate it). I don't want to watch T.V. every bloody evening.
He cannot spend his time at home doing anything else ─ that is, watching T.V. and drinking. He never learned to use a computer, and for some reason he seems too dense to fathom how to use one. He requires ongoing supervision anytime he does expose himself to one when he wants to get some information about something.
I don't know if it's because his brain has incurred too much damage from his drinking, but he seems completely blocked from developing any computer expertise.
And so the unfortunate reality is that he is often home watching a dozen or more hours of T.V. per day, and becoming practically a nuisance where my own plans and schedules are concerned.
If he is now home to stay for the day, I may refuse to involve myself with him this evening. I want the early a.m., for I would like to get out to do some grocery shopping that I will otherwise not get done during the busy day.
And with that declared, I think that I will put this post to rest. I want to engage some exercising. I might even seek another nap. If I could manage an exceptionally long nap, then I could afford to spend a few hours operating our Android TV Box this evening ─ I would likely be able to rise well before the break of day and not feel too ill-slept for having done so.
We shall see.
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