😈Dark Ties👹

I am beyond depraved, for I cannot be delivered from my sordid turn when that becomes the direction of my thoughts, as last evening proved.

Rather than get to bed and adhere to my plans for this morning, I do not believe that I made it to bed until after 3:30 a.m.

I feel so bereft of hope and worth. This is all I am after over 76 years of life?

I set my cellphone alarm for 8 a.m. to ensure that I at least rose to have the usual latter morning time watching T.V. with my younger brother. However, I was to find myself awake around 7 a.m.; and after lying awake for some while, I finally found the resolve to get up ahead of that alarm.

My brother had already risen at some point and was already watching T.V.

I waited until 9 a.m. before joining him, and pretty much straight off got his invitation to start operation of our old T95Q Android 9 TV Box.

My first choice for videos were three reasonably short ones that had all been published earlier today to BitChute's NEM721 channel: 

● zionist israel's benjamin bibi netanyahu ai images rumored missing in action & 6 MORE US Airmen DEAD (11:21)

● BREAKING: Trump says U.S. launched bombing raid on Iran’s Kharg Island (5:54)

● Creepy Videos That Have Me Disturbed (36:53) 

Next I tuned in the last half or so of the documentary we broke from yesterday so my brother could pursue further bed rest. At 55 minutes (55:39), it had been uploaded January 13, 2021, to YouTube's Free Documentary - History channel: Mein Kampf: The Secrets of Adolf Hitler's Book of Evil | Free Documentary Nature.

Today Adolf Hitler’s autobiography cum Nazi manifesto is still sold all over the world, under the counter, on the internet or simply at the bookshop. This 700 page book, published in 1925, was re-edited numerous times since the death of the author. How was it written? Was Hitler really the author? Were the war and the Holocaust truly inscribed in its pages? This documentary plunges deep into the secrets of Mein Kampf. A simple book of paradoxes: famous but unknown, fascinating and repulsive.

And then because I could find no working sources for the episode when I tried yesterday morning, this morning I had downloaded it onto a USB drive and we were able to watch it in that fashion. I am speaking of Riverdale ─ episode 17 ("Chapter Ninety-Three: Dance of Death") of season five.

My download source was this GOOJARA.to link.

When the episode was watched, even though it was just after 11 a.m., my brother announced that he was returning to his bedroom for some further rest because he was going to rendezvous with a drinking buddy, and would be leaving here on foot around noon for a bus.

My wife had a full workday today, but she didn't emerge from her bedroom until nigh 10:10 a.m. to shower and otherwise ready herself, and left here around 10:30 a.m. or soon after on her rather long and sunny drive to the Thai restaurant where she is employed part-time.

Last evening after she was home, while I was lying on my bed brushing my teeth, she brought back the four-litre box of red wine I had let her have three or four evenings previously. She explained simply that she did not intend to do any drinking last night, so I reckon she was removing temptation.

It seems to indeed have been a sunny day, but when I joined my brother for T.V. this morning, he said that the weather report he watched was that by tomorrow morning we would be experiencing an intense and prolonged atmospheric river of rain.

Provided it is not a deluge, I am hoping to be able to hobble to a grocery store a mile from here to do some shopping ─ it has a pharmacy section, and I need to restock on some vitamin supplements and such as well as some groceries. But if it is raining torrentially, I will just buy some groceries at the store a half mile from here and deal with my pharmacy needs in some other fashion.

I had absolutely no heart for exercise today ─ not that I felt well rested and desirous of it. As well, this was a bath day, so between the hour or so that entire process consumes, and blogging two posts, I really don't have time for much else.

I have had the bath, by the way; and stripped naked for it, I was maybe 181 pounds. And that's with only having consumed one mug of coffee today with the works (cream, demerara sugar, and honey). I will not eat my day's only meal until possibly dark.

Right now it is 5:13 p.m., so I am going to break from this post and watch a couple of T.V. shows here on my bedside computer, enjoying a can of Cariboo Malt (7.9% alcohol) with each of the shows. Then I will eat.

I will finish up this post later this evening.

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I had a little needful restraint to make my first beer last for the duration of my first show, the Titans ─ episode eight ("Jericho") of season two. My source was this TVSeries.video link. 'Twas all over by 6:17 p.m.

Unquestionably intense! I was liking Jericho a lot ─ sad the writers had to kill him off. But where did this one-eyed sister of his suddenly appear from the past few episodes? Jericho was the only child in this episode's backstory.

My next show was done by 7:41 p.m., but only as late as that because not 15 minutes into it, my computer seized up with a great grinding noise and then it blacked out. I had to force a full stop, and then wait for it to fully reload. While doing so, as soon as the Microsoft FreeCell icon displayed, I played a game to pass reload time.

By the time I was able to recommence Van Helsing ─ episode two ("Dark Ties") of season four. ─ I was almost tormented from the meal I had sitting here awaiting my attention. My source for the episode was another TVSeries.video link.

I recalled some of the episode from back in 2019 when I used to watch the series, but I have no idea from write-up descriptions where it was that I left off, so I will proceed with the series as I am doing.

Due to that delay as a result of my computer crash, once I was back into the episode, I hurried through my can of beer so that I could eat my meal while watching the remainder of the show. And I timed this nearly perfectly.

After pouring myself what was probably at least 11 ounces of Sommet Rouge wine (12% alcohol), I then tuned in Madam Secretary ─ episode 10 ("Collateral Damage") of season one. It was done by 8:58 p.m. My source was this CineGo.co link.

Definitely an interesting and even dramatic episode. I'm practically wanting something romantic to develop between Blake and Madam Secretary's daughter Stevie. I just can't peg Blake's age.

Anyway, with at least a couple ounces of wine remaining in my glass, I opted to risk a sitcom, so I tuned in Victorious ─ episode eighteen ("A Film by Dale Squires") of the first season. My source was another CineGo.co link. [Note that I am correcting this on March 17 ─ I had believed myself to be watching episode nine, so the link is probably to that episode.]

I enjoy this fluffy series a lot. I can never get over how attracted I am to Ariana Grande's character's endless innocence and expressive enthusiasm.

Right now it is 9:43 p.m. and I am going to get to work brushing my teeth, and then I shall start shutting down what needs the treatment, and then get myself to bed. Ideally, I would like to rise at 5 a.m. tomorrow for that longer than usual grocery shopping.

And now at maybe 9:50 p.m. my wife arrived home, and requested use of one of my two brand new four-litre boxes of Sommet Rouge ─ she is a fussy wine drinker! She wants fresh stuff and not the dwindling remnants from the box already open.

I was rather expecting that, and merrily complied by opening a new one for her.

Enough! It is now 10:02 p.m.