💀☠💀☠💀☠ Grey Day

And so I fell. It is with little heart that I blog today.

The great shame is that I just could not go directly to bed last night as I well knew I should. I am a slave to wickedness ─ this cannot be denied.

I went nowhere early last evening. Instead, after publishing my post here that day, I explored that which is most vile, finally managing to free myself.

But it was only temporary, as already cited.

I need help.

I watched a couple of shows of note last evening with my younger brother once he hauled his drunken self home from his daily socializing.

I led us off with an episode of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, but it was the next show that I wish to first identify ─ another hour-long movie in the old British T.V. series Edgar Wallace Mysteries.

We have now progressed to January 1963's Incident at Midnight. And as always, we watched the movie on T.V. via a browser app that I have downloaded into our Android TV Box that allowed me to access the film at this link at OK.ru. 

Note that the movie was not quite 55 minutes, so a little less than an hour.

I always enjoy these quaint old features; and although I did not recognize the name of actor Anton Diffring, I certainly did recognize him as a very familiar usually-villainous face in older movies.

The other show worth mentioning was the miniseries finale of Sharp Objects. I was definitely caught off guard by the ending, although I did become suspicious that something unexpected was in the works because the episode did not end with the apprehension and conviction of the mother for the murders of the three or so young teen girls.

The lead role in the series of course belonged to actress Amy Adams, but Eliza Scanlen as her sexually precocious young sister was often striking. And the scenes where she and her two friends would be synchronously roller skating down streets was almost hypnotic and otherworldly, for they seemed so perfectly ─ if almost sinisterly ─ beautiful. 

Young goddesses.

The ending qualified as shock, but I wish that it did not just end there, leaving us hanging. We were given no hint if Amy's character was going to turn in her young sister after learning that the lass had murdered and rather gruesomely maimed at least a couple young teen girls, including maybe her very own sister (Amy Adams played the oldest of the three sisters).

I had to resort to the book that the series was based upon in order to learn how that story ended, and thereby convinced myself that probably Amy's character would indeed turn in her younger sister, even though I could not quite tell if that was why the younger sister got arrested in the book.

The notion that the T.V. miniseries left was that maybe Amy's character was not going to do the right thing ─ or maybe the young sister would kill Amy's character.

I was not happy with an ending like that.

That happened to be the last show that my brother and I were to watch last night before he retired ─ something I should also have done. But instead, I remained up until long after 2 a.m.

It was a rough morning. The two cans of strong (8% alcohol) malt that I had consumed last evening had an effect that was compounded by inadequate sleep overnight.

Temperatures probably hit the freezing level, for the old snow on our cul-de-sac would crunch anytime someone drove over it. Things warmed up today, for we got a few degrees above freezing, but for the next week we can expect to hit the freezing mark each night.

At least we are sometimes getting a little rain, albeit there is sometimes snow mixed in with it. My five-mile walks are on hold until the walkways are cleared of the wintry mess.

This morning I felt too downcast to bother accompanying my brother when he left to pick up his girlfriend Bev at 10 a.m. and drive her to work ─ I use that convenience that he offers as my means of resupplying my malt supply. I am now down to a mere four cans.

I am unsure if I will bother watching T.V. with him this evening ─ I may retire relatively early instead.

Or not.

We shall see.

I did get out to the backyard tool shed when he left for Bev; and I tackled the six sets of pull-ups and chin-ups, barely managing to achieve my current ceiling of repetitions in those sets: 4 - 3 - 3 - 2 - 2 - 2. I dared nothing else ─ I was too ill-rested and unstable to deem myself able to handle the challenge of anything else. Notwithstanding, I did return to the shed mid-afternoon for that little bit more of exercising that I had omitted.

As for morning television, I used our Android TV Box to tune in three uploads of yesterday to Rumble's Children's Health Defense Canada channel, all of them interviews hosted by very attractive Sherry Strong.

The first was about an hour long: Dr. Eric Payne - Pro Vax Pediatric Neurologist Speaking Out for Our Kids to Stop the Shots.

It's all in the government data. Dr. Eric Payne sent a letter citing the government's own data and was targeted for speaking the truth so as to dissuade others from telling the truth.

You'll hear his story and the very information that took him on his 180 degree vax journey. We certainly need more doctors willing to do what he is doing with great humility and care for our children.

Eric Payne Bio

Dr. Eric Payne is a pediatric neurologist and clinical researcher. He worked as a pediatric neurology and epilepsy consultant at Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN from 2014-2020. He completed medical school and pediatric neurology residency at the University of Calgary and Alberta Children’s Hospital. He then pursued fellowship training in pediatric neuro-critical care and epilepsy at the Hospital for Sick Children in Toronto. He obtained a Master of Public Health from Harvard University. He is board certified in Pediatric Neurology (Fellow – Royal College of Physicians & Surgeons of Canada) and Clinical Electroencephalography (Canadian Society of Clinical Neurophysiologists). His research has focused on neuro-inflammation and improving long-term cognitive outcomes among children with refractory seizures and critical brain injury. He is also a member of the Canadian Covid Care Alliance.

Next was a video of somewhat greater length (1:08:34): Shawn Buckley Talks about the National Citizen's Inquiry and Justice for the Jabbed.

Constitutional lawyer Shawn Buckley joins us to discuss the loss of our constitutional freedoms and the NCI which is the first initiative of its kind in Canada and perhaps the world. Find out why this is a critical piece of our history in the making and why it is vital you get involved and support it.

Bio for Shawn

Shawn Buckley represents the MacIsaac Group of Law Firms for Personal Injury claims in the Kamloops, Valemount, North Thompson and Williams Lake regions of British Columbia. His practice focuses on Personal Injury claims and Criminal Law with a particular interest in Health Canada issues dealing with the Food and Drugs Act and regulations. His work in that area ranges from defending companies charged with violating the Act and regulations to assisting companies obtain licenses.

The third video was 54 minutes: Dr. Sherri Tenpenny - Treating Symptoms with Healing & Prevention Modalities.

I liked Dr. Sherri Tenpenny, at least I did until I interviewed her...
Now I LOVE her!

Dr. T has been speaking out long before the last three years and has done more study into vaccines than 99% of doctors out there. She's sharp, a life long learner and works tirelessly to find solutions for what ails our poisoned planet.

Her faith is a grounding force which she is fearlessly vocal about and guides the work she does. Please take some time to watch and listen undisturbed to this personal and inspiring chat with Dr. T!

You can find her here;
https://drtenpenny.com
http://TenpennyIMC.com
http://TenpennyECP.com

Please also subscribe to Children's Health Defense Canada to be apprised of content specific to what is happening here; www.childrenshealthdefense.ca

After that, we just watched a couple of YouTube videos, and then my brother sought bed rest before leaving for the day to socialize. He rose and left while I was having a needed early afternoon nap.

The mail today aggravated my depression, for it brought the annual utilities bill for which payment is due April 3 ─ if I am remembering correctly, the total was $2,088.

Even if my brother and both stepsons cover 25% apiece, I am at a loss as to how I can get through the next few months. In order to pay my share of the utilities bill, I will have to use some of the monthly mortgage money for April.

Then in June comes the annual homeowners insurance; and in early July, the killer annual property taxes.

I am in a dark place. When I sought that earlier nap, I was in tears, and nursing notions of ending myself. I see no way out of the crushing debt that I am buried with.

My profligate wife is currently visiting a sister of hers who lives in Rome, Italy. My wife left YVR early in the evening of January 23 on a one-way fare of (I believe) under $250 that was made possible by a bunch of Aeroplan points that I had accumulated.

Obviously that was a great deal ─ and it has also meant that my wife has not been succumbing here to her casino gambling addiction.

Even so, she still intends to travel on to Thailand to visit her mother at the family village. I have no idea how she will be paying for the flight, unless the sister has the means to cover the cost for her.

And then how will we get her back here to Canada afterwards? My wife has some property in Thailand that she says she intends to sell, but that was always supposed to be her 'nest egg' ─ I hate that we are in such a sorry fix that things have come to this.

I do not wish to speak any further about this ─ it aches my heart.

She posted the following 18 images to her Facebook account today at 6:40 a.m. Pacific Time Zone, or 3:40 p.m. local Rome time. As to a specific general location, I am suggesting that she was likely very near to or even along the Via Barberini (Google Map), for she often posts from the Piazza Barberini.

I am concluding today's post here.